Last night, I dreamed of fighting with my head boss at the office and being replaced by some male MF who didn't know what intonation was. I felt this might have just been triggered by a company planner I had felt he didn't want to give me. This was a planner exclusive to Team Leaders and Trainers.
Today, I came in to find a planner on my chair. I went in the managers office to say hi to my bosses and one said she wanted to talk to me about something. What she said made me think a lot.
She said that my boss (let's use the pseudo MK: for mortal Kombat...lol) didn't want to give me one. This, in her words, was because I would be late for another training class anyway and would be taken out of training. In other words I'd be demoted anyways cause he knows I would be late.
I wanted to so take the planner and shove in right down his throat and say "Tangina mo lamunin mo itong planner mo." (Eat your fucking planner! Son of a b@$#*!!!) then walk out of the building.
Thinking about it, I thought maybe he was just that disappointed in me. This got me through the entire shift, but after, I started thinking about it some more and I realized he approves everything at the office. Vacation leaves, sick leaves, renewal of contracts... Then it hit me... Maybe he wasn't going to renew my contract.
I thought about it really hard and I scrutinized every single part of the conversation I had with the manager I talked to this morning. There is a huge possibility that she is trying to cover up MK's ass, as she had slipped a bit in telling me he didn't want me getting a planner.
Paranoia is now kicking in and remembering the dream made me wonder if it was God's way of saying "Leave that stupid company, I have better plans for you."
Paranoia or not, I feel that it is better to be prepared and beat them to the punch, than have them think that I'll be begging for my job. I'm smart and capable of doing other things. Plus the fact that the teachers that are going to be left over aren't even as good in terms of English. Don't get me wrong they might be good in other aspects but wait isn't that what we do? We teach English, right?
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