Just because I smile, doesn't mean that I'm okay.

"I don't regret anything that happened, but if I were given a chance to go back to the time we met, I would stay away." - Greg Torres

One cause of stress down, but one major Stress causer still on going.

"The saying loving yourself should be your first priority, but it sure is hard to do especially when you really love someone else." - Greg Torres

I had recently joined a singing contest at a local Karaoke/Stand up comedy bar near where I live and it had just ended last night. During the competition I met a guy and started dating and now considered each other partners. However, due to MAJOR complications, we are unable to fully express our feelings for each other.

Since the two of us were in the same competition, we would usually be together. Don't get me wrong, I love him a lot but he has always had this, I don't want you to know my feelings kinda attitude which just keeps me hanging all the time.

I have been trying my best to stay happy and be supportive, but it is totally getting tiring. Imagine this, I'm telling him something and then he looks else where having all his focus on that. This makes me feel he isn't interested. When you ask him something that causes him to be a bit confrontational, he just smiles or changes the topic. And not even in a subtle way a very abrupt way, after an awkward pause.

Honestly, I don't think I deserve to be treated this way, but I don't want to give up.